So I was driving to school this morning and feeling exceptionally sorry for myself. I’m sure you all know that I’ve been in a funk for about 2 weeks now. I have no idea why, I can’t articulate it, I feel sentimental and sad and just blah.
But this morning I’ve just had enough of myself. And I gave myself a good pep talk and a hard slap against the back of the head – obviously figuratively.
Why do you feel so sorry for yourself. Has God not proved time and time again that HE gives you what you need when you need it. Not before, not after, you may wander off on a different route but He will yank you back and point your feet in the right direction.
Look at the car – everything just fell into place and it worked out. With enough money and the perfect match for you and Zoe.
Look at the house – you made plans and talked to people and made more plans and looked at houses and drew up Excel spreadsheet and drove around in circles and cried in offices and on the phone and collected piles and piles of documents and sobbed in stranger’s arms and in work colleague’s arms. And when the time was right? Everything came togehter and you now have the perfect place – meeting all your needs. And the final result – it came to you in a phone call nothing you did made it happen…
So why should it be different in any other aspect of your live? Why would God abandon you now? Why would He let you walk down a road without guidance, all on your own?
Come on Girl – you know – yes you definitely know in your heart of hearts that everything will happen as it should, when it should, in God’s Own Time.
Stop it, Stop overthinking, stop analysing, stop planning, stop stop STOP!!!!
And another weekend without Zoe – gosh I find it so incredibly hard…