So in the past 10 weeks the light at the end of the tunnel looked more like an incoming train than the end of the tunnel. But now finally, it does seem although it may actually be the sun and not the train.
I know there will still be a lot of days where I’m down on the ground and will have to find the courage and strength to bop back up but I know I have it in me. Yesterday I had a major setback and until about a week ago I would’ve crumbled and cried, I didn’t even bop – I just weaved and got things right but sheer force.
I can really say that I’m exceptionally proud of myself BUT without the help of friends, my mom and brother, and all the experts that is giving their advice for free, and the unwavering knowledge that God is carrying me in this whole story, it may have been a totally different story.
I had a chuckle this morning – I can remember somewhere very early in this year I wrote a blog about being mindful and less wasteful and stop having too much of everything. Goodness, prophetic words – no husband, smaller car, now smaller house, less furniture, less money, less, less, less BUT the only thing there is still an abundance of: Love, Hope and the amazing Grace from God.
Not to mention my running buddies – Sunday we had a run and I just couldn’t run – I was as weak as a kitten and one of the guys stuck with me until the end. And then send me a message afterwards that he is going to start to check in with me everyday because I’m so weak because of the drastic weight-loss and he is going to remind me to eat every day and every meal of the day. The weight loss is a bit of a problem – I’ve now lost 10% of my body weight – not much if you have a weight problem but I wasn’t really fat to start off with so it is a lot.
And then my 4 day trail in the Karoo is starting on Thursday – I’m so so excited – to be out and run for 4 days in nature and be stripped from everything but the bare essentials and not to mention that I’m finally going to meet Charlies Bird!!
So I’m still here and I’m OK.