Thank you so very very much for your kind words yesterday. It meant the earth to me. Last night we switched the TV off and Hubby, myself, Zoe and the dog all just spent time together without any interruptions. Once again I realised what is important in life.
After I wrote my blog yesterday, I decided to read the e-mail again, and again and again. It was full of venom and vicious accusations but I decided to take the e-mail as a mirror and look at myself but also let the mirror reflect back onto the person who has send me the mail. I decided to learn and take from the mail which I could acknowledge is true about me and what I think should change. I also took out all the contradictions, Freudian slips and hear say. What I was left with was an aknowledgement that I may sometimes say things in a joke that people may take offense to and I do try too hard to please people. So yes that is going to change but the mirror reflected a nasty picture about the person that wrote the e-mail.
And then the most important. What an incredible relief that I don’t have to pretend to like a person anymore. What a relief that he won’t be around anymore. My biggest regret? that I tried for too long too hard to like him.
Shame poor old hubby was in meetings the whole morning so when I phoned him he could only hear me sobbing and he had to go again. When I got home from work he was waiting for me – he just told the people at work that he has to work from home.
I do want to predict that this person and his current girlfriend will start jockeying for postion within our group of friends very soon.
Enough about me and my tale of woe.
I better get some work done.