My view of myself

I’ve always struggled with my self image and I have always believed that I’m not worthy of friendship or for people to like me.

It’s been a long journey and I’ve been trying very very hard to change.  All that hard work has now been destroyed by a very very nasty e-mail from somebody that I have seen as a friend.

I’m destroyed – I want to run and hide and distance myself from everybody because I’m so scared that they will think the same of me as this person.

I honestly do not know what to do – how can I be a proper mother to Zoe if I’m such a terrible person.

Black dog of depression is sitting on my face.


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8 Responses to My view of myself

  1. Tourmaline says:

    You are not a terrible person, you’re a wonderful mother to Zoe and you can’t let other people’s bile go straight to heart. People’s words hurt us yes and they often break down what we’ve been working so hard on to change, but please don’t think that you are whatever that person has told you. By all means, if you want to run and hide, do so until you have the strength to face the world and the so-called friend again, but you ARE NOT A BAD PERSON! Chin up, everything will be okay! Hugs!

  2. Me and Mine says:

    One of the things that come with age is the realization that you can never substitute another persons opinion or judgement for your own. You are the only one who knows what kind of person you are deep down but do you honestly think for one minute that you would have your husband or Zoe if you were a terrible person!!???!!
    Don’t allow some poor small minded person to destroy you or your self image.
    Don’t allow this person to drag you into darkness, maybe they just thrive on others misery and you are giving her/him exactly the fix they are looking for!
    Love and hugs. xx

  3. squidsquirt says:

    Oh dear. Sorry someone has messed with your head. You’re not a terrrible person. In fact, you’re a great person! I know it’s hard to feel good about yourself if the black dog is yapping around, but know that there are plenty of people who care about you.

  4. Nats says:

    It is so sad that one person can make us feel this way, but do not let her get to you, just ignore her and carry on with your life. Peoples word can hurt us more than physical pain, but we need to find the strength in us not to allow them to break us down. You are not a terrible person, that person who said this about you is only facing her/his own side of being terrible and trying to blame it on you.

    You are not terrible, you are a great mother to Zoe, those sparkly eyes and smile of hers says it all. Sending you big big hugs xx

  5. nusha says:

    I agree with the others … esp Shazzie! Just look to your family … your awesome husband and your lovely daughter … no way could be some kind of awful person and still manage to have that! Zoe would not be the lovely little girl that she is …

    Do not allow this person to drag you down … you ARE NOT a terrible person!

  6. Lunar says:

    It is normal to feel the way you do right now when something like this happens. But no one knows you better than you and you can’t always listen to what other people have to say about you. Energy vampires must be cut right out of your life. Save your energy for the people who bring you love and joy and are so much more worth it! Big hugs!!

  7. lyndamadd says:

    Oh Dear! Sorry that this dreadful person messed you day up. But they’re truly not even worth the air that they breath. My experience of people such as this is that they’re pointing out (what they think are) other peoples failings in the desperate hope that nobody will notice they it is, in fact, THEY who is a loser. Sending hugs, lovely lady. Now go and stand in front of the mirror, look yourself in the eye and tell youself that: 1. you’re a gorgeous chick. 2. your Zoe adores you. 3. your husband thinks you rock. 4. NObody can change that.

  8. Miss Mishka says:

    Hi Sweetie,
    Don’t pay ignorant people any mind. You’re an amazing wife and mother. And aside from that you are a wonderful woman. Stand tall, hold your head high and tell yourself that all the time. And ignorance is the best for people who make it their life task to put others down. It could be said “friend” is trying to mask him/ her insecurities.
    Stay strong love
    Hugs and Kisses

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